I am a monster

Even if you call my name

Hear the sound of your voice

When you call my name

You seem happy

When I don't respond

You seem mad

I know it's bad

When you call my name again

I feel that your heart broke

I'm a monster

When I hear your voice

I feel guilty

Because I know that I have not excuse

See you, hear you, touch you and talk with you

Reminds me how guilty I am

I am a monster

I do look like a monster

I react like a monster

I'm a monster

I smile, I laugh like a fool,

I'm a selfish human

I lost my mind and my soul

My heart is full of tears and blood

You love me

But I just love me only

And I am sorry for that

I hate myself for being selfish

I am a monster

I've done so many bad things to you

I hope that you will forgive me one day

I hope that I will not enter the hell once again

I hope that I will have a second chance, a JOKER !